Just a lil somethin

so i was sittin here tryin to figure out what to write about and im stumped tonight so ill share a very old poem of mine that i came across the other day...just a background on it. this was back when i was sick and went through a major depression this would have to be one of the deepest things i have ever wrote...

“torn”

Torn apart piece by piece my heart is shredded into small red pieces like blood dripping from a wound ironic it’s the blood from the same wound that you created, ripped inside my flesh cant take it anymore, hurting so bad that it feels like a internal war, killing me a little at a time though I may look happy I’m not…what has happened to me… I cry out from the depths of my soul I just want to be normal I just want to have my life back...you never knew how much that you hurt me but every little name every little tease every time you just happen to not see me standing right next to you its like you just pushed me closer to the edge…..and now I’m there…you may have thought that everything you did, say, or think was harmless it wasn’t it was like telling me to that I am worthless and no good you never know what words really mean to a person till they are gone….questions running through my head at a million miles an hour what would it really have an impact on people if I was gone or would they just say oh well…... will i be remembered how i would like or will i be remembered as the fat guy that is stupid and never had any friends i just dont know and i dont want to have to find out but you have pushed me to the point where nothing matters anymore nothing at all.... you have pushed me to the edge and i am falling off fast... no net... no pillow.... just a jagged edge slidding slowly into my heart....